Best freeking week EVER!!!!!!!!!

Wow. What a week. Basically, I am so ridiculously happy I can't even stand it. Why? Here's the long story short. I get asked to homecoming, and my first article for the school newspaper makes the front page. How do these things happen to me????? Oh, and Summit won the third football game in a row. This time, at home and evidently, the turnout was amazing.
So, about the homecoming deal, I'm not really sure how it happened. But I'm really happy about it, mostly because there's a possibility for something beautiful to come of it. And I've waited a long time for that. Hope isn't something I generally allow myself to feel very often, simply because it usually begets disappointment. But I think maybe I should change that this time around. Because I hope this works out. And I hope it continues to work out for quite some time.

Signing off until further developments:

Semper Fidelis,
Rae

Can You Say JUNIOR???!!!

Hey all, guess what? I am officially an Upper-classman. Yes, ME, Rae. I can leave campus for lunch and Hulburt can't even sniffle about it because it's totally within the rules. HA! So there.

But besides that, I have discovered a number of things. The first, is that three months is both way too short for summer break, and way too long. The second, is that whether or not it's a proper length, the summer provides time for an enourmous amount of personal growth. The gap between the person I was when I left Summit last June and the person I am now is huge. My goal for the year is to learn how to listen. Really listen, with my whole brain, and not be thinking about other things while other people are talking. Also, not to give people advice unless they ask for it. And that there are times to speak with the mind and times to speak with the heart. I hope this year will be wonderful, actually, I know it will. Because the football team just won a game for the first time in two years. That's big news!
Also, while I'm at it, I'll say that for all the things I learned this summer, one of my favorites can be summed up in a quote by good old Teddy Roosevelt: "Do what you can with what you have where you are." To me, this means that you do what you can and that's all you can do. Because if you try to do too much, you can lose sight of what your trying to accomplish which ends up helping no one.

I'll try and keep this updated, but with seven classes a day now, the homework load is kinda... well... large. In any case, I'll be back soon I think. As soon as possible anyways. Have a wonderful unspecified amount of time until then!

A memory...

"There was a certain beauty in knowing that I was dying. Knowing that soon, I would have nothing to worry about; no fears or trepidation, no meaning-of-life sized puzzles to keep me up at night. There would be no more nights for me, as this would be my last. And there was an eerie comfort in that. No moments of indecision, no mistakes, no second guessing. I would jump, and it would end. The constant noise, swirls of consciousness from minds not my own, would become a deafening silence that no one alive would hear. Yes, I would end it tonight, under the crystal sky and the moon so bright I could almost see my empty soul reflected in its surface. Here with the icy water bellow, everything would end."

~ January of 2006