Finally Fourteen!

Woot! Yes, I am now fourteen at LAST!! My birthday, the first of September this year, was spent at school with Kaitlin and Jake Daley. The night before, Kaitlin and Kate and I spent the night hunting dinosaurs, playing guitar, and pigging out at my place.
I finally got to go back to school! I was ecstatic! I got to see my favorite people in the UNIVERSE!!!!! As in Taylor, his friends, and my old English teacher. It was the BEST ever!!!
Yeah, I know... I have to be pretty weird to think spending my birthday at school is the best, but hey! It's me isn't it?

The one thing I didn't like, was having to see him again. Gads, I thought I might go do something stupid like, smack him across the face in front of everyone. It was horrible. I often forget that the mind and the heart are two separate entities, and although one may have moved on, the other still clings like a leaf in an autumn wind to the last vestiges of what could have been; the callous twig of a hopeless dream.

Stupid, to think you're ever really over someone when everything about a place reminds you of them. A place you have to go every day. A place where around every corner you here their voice and see their smile and feel their laughter warming you to your toes. Stupid to think the human heart ever truly forgets it's first love.

It is nice, though, to have someone to talk to about this. Not even someone my age, as odd as that is. But someone I can talk to without even saying a word, that just by being in the same room, he can look at me and console me on all my dramatic teenaged angst. All this, empathy and emotion that I have, but don't have really... This perpetual commotion, a chaos of turmoil from years of thought, but no action to see those thoughts to life.

Love, it begins as a thought. I suppose whether or not love sees its light depends on time, place, and whether or not one or the other of the people involved is a disgusting little freak.