Wondering...

Sometimes, I wonder if I am trying too hard... but then, I suppose if I weren't trying, I wouldn't be able to go anywhere with my life. But at what point does one need to reassess where they stand in their relationships with the people around them and what they sacrifice to keep those relationships strong? I for one, know that in matters of both friends and family, I have a tendency to take my companions for granted. My ambition, possibly the most detrimental of all of my demerits, gets in the way of my sensitivity toward others, thus rendering me rather cold and allowing me to become manipulative and conniving. I wish this didn't happen, as I realize every time it does that it costs me... whether the price is the respect of my parents, or that of my friends and my peers, I seem to have made a habit out of focusing solely on an end goal, and ignoring everyone else in my way. Sometimes, friends try and help us to achieve our goals, and sometimes we take that help... but often times, we try and push it away, insiting to our own minds that we don't need it, and that if we take the offer of aide, we weaken ourselves... Perhaps this is not true for all people and I am making a hasty judgement, but I know that it is true for me, and if you happen to be one of the people reading this that I have ever hurt in my quest for something... more... than I apologize.